I cant understand what your going through or how you feel...
All I can think of - as advice would be...
Its not your fault and its not your babies fault.. You have choices - and it doesnt have to hurt you or the baby
1.Keep the baby - If you believe you are ready to be a mum
2.Put baby up for adoption - There are plenty of couples/people out in the world that cant have children and will think your baby as a blessing!
Very sorry that you are in this situation and what you have been through
