Hey Brieal, I'm so sorry for your loss. I dont think you are a bad mother. My mom lost her very first baby when it was only 2 days old. It was a girl and her name was Caroline. My mother hardly ever mentions her because I guess its really hard for her. So you are not the only one. Its a tough situation to handle I'm sure and very hard to talk about it. Its o.k. they are resting now, and are peaceful.

What a wonderful group of ladies.I know what it is like to lose a child. My 1st born was killed in a car accident 2 weeks before turning 20 years old.
All of us are different. Sometimes talking about them helps and sometimes not talking helps. It has been 14 years now since my gilr died, and I still miss her terribly. People talk about "closure'. there is no "closure'. we just get to a point where we can live with it eventually. We never have to like it but we deal with it.
As for crying.....don't let anyone tell you not to cry. It can be great therapy. I learned two sayings back then that I believe in firmly. Now, I know not everyone believes in God, and we all have our own beliefs, but if you do, then maybe these will help.

#1- Tears are God's way of washing away the pain".

#2- Tears are God's way of thawing out a heart, frozen with grief."

You are not a bad Mom. We just all deal differently. Some don't cry at all. This is what makes the world so wonderful, is the differences in us.
Bless you all,
Susie

Thank You Iluvandy & Susieqzee
& Those Sayings Are So True

And Yes What A Wonderful Group Of Ladies

Thanks Again Everyone
Brieal

You are very welcome!

Hiya All

Today I Have Done Something Big Again
Wyatt Was Cremated & I Had His Ashes In His Bassinet Next To My Bed ( In A Box Of Course ) And I Didnt Want To Spread His Ashes Because I Just Couldnt Do It So Today I Went To The Beach And Stood On A Rock And Spread His Ashes In The Water And Now I Feel Alot Better And I Thank Everybody Who Commented On Here, I Feel Like Hes At Peace And I Dont Feel Like Im A Bad Mom And Its Ok To Cry And Talk About Him.
Thanks EVERYBODY

Brieal
R.I.P Wyatt

Well, I'm glad you feel better, you almost had me in tears when I read what you wrote. I know that was the hardest thing for you to do ever in your life. I hope and wish the best for you and your family.

R.I.P.
Wyatt