So i just want to say that i know how you feel a little bit..im only 14 now almost 15 but so far for the last year or so ive been pretty much like a lab rat for my mother to diagnose. see, my mom is pretty much a my way or no way kinda person, So theres that and the "pre-diabetes" the quacks labeled me with then all the other shit(scuse my language)so i get what your feeling.
ex. Last Friday i freaked out and ran away..and neither my mom nor her husband thought anything of it and that made me so mad that i hit myself..not like in the face but on my arm..and i have 2 almost basebal size bruises under some old scars.
But For the past 14 years my mom has tried to blame everything on me or my father and everything she says has two sides to it and its just confusing and i cant stand it. But okay right now im going to get really personal bc ive never had the chance to really talk about it and im sure you need it so here goes...
a few years ago my dad had a little trouble and tried to kill himself..#1 hereditary depression for me.
But not only that but i saw him do it..i saw him unscrew the stairs in the barn/garage, i saw him hang the nuese and i saw him jump..# relapse and depression.. and trouble doing everyday things )
Then every year around the time he did it i get so depressed that it shows right through.. in my school work..at home and even hanging out with friends it shows. Its rough but ive learned that people are there for me and care about me and dont want me to hurt myself in anyway..so i just want to let you now that even tho i dont know you. im still here to talk to or vent on and i just want to say i understand..we can help eachother.. thanx for your time i know this is a long one so ill let you go now.

I'm very sad reading this.
I can't say I know how you feel, but that doesn't change the fact I wish I could help you. These few words are everything I can do, and I feel so indifferent.
I know what's it like when you think nobody understands you. I think it's even worse in adolescence, so next few years will be a fight. You're naturally uncertain and worried. But then again - you're a fighter. My mom says that the hardest thing are hardest for one reason - they're worth the fight.
Your illness is very severe and it CALLS FOR the professional help. Nothing new for you, I guess.
I've lost my friend to that. But I know YOU are stronger. And you're not damn selfish! You love your family and they need you. You are needed! Look at your little sister's face and you'll see that she needs you. She needs you because you're her big sister, her heroine.
Your friends need you.
Do you keep a diary? I'm asking because it has a great therapeutic effect. To see your thoughts written helps. But you should really meet with psychologist. They're trained to listen and help you, woman!
I hope this post, amongst the others, helps you to feel loved, to feel worried about, to feel needed - even if it's just by a crazy, completely unknown individual who likes to talk way too much.
Keep your head and spirits high!

Awh, Kelly I'm so sorry. I feel stupid for not reading this before. I'm really sorry that you feel this way. You know you can ALWAYS talk to me. I'm always here for you no matter what.

So my grandmother decided it was time to tell my parents & now everythings gone to fucking hell but its okay because she'll forget about me again soon when the new drama with my brother & his idiotic friend blows up

I know how you feel about nobody caring about you, and feeling hopeless. My mom/well she's not really a mom, is the meanest most cold hearted witch I've ever met. Sometimes I just want to go to her and scream I am your DAUGHTER, how can you not care about me, how can you not love me, how can you love River(brother) more, and show it all the time? I just want to slap her in the face. She's been abusive before, but she likes verbal abuse. It's bad enough when she does it to me but when she does it to River, I just want to kill her! And I know how I just said she loves him more! One time she blew up on him, and was screaming and throwing things and screamed to him "YOU ARE A SICK DISGUSTING LIAR!!" By the way, he's 10, and I'm 15. And I've got issues with almost everyone in my family. But I've never been depressed and I've never been suicidal. And I'll tell you right now it is because of God. He is the only reason I wake up everyday and deal with all the crap in my life. I talk to him like I talk to my best friend. I've even thought before; if any other teenager had lived my life and didn't have God they would be depressed or even suicidal. But I'm not at all, and I know that God cares for and loves me! He takes ALL pain and fear away, all you have to do is give it all to him, and no worries. It really is that easy!

Alyssa Shayne

Kelly, im so sorry you feel this way =(
if you ever need anyone to talk to, PM me and ill be here.