Just find something you enjoy doing and keep yourself busy with it, like I said tho if you need to speak to a doctor then so be it go and see a doctor and talk things through with them they are there to help...

Just remember also, my way of thinking and it is something I have done since I was a very very little girl and that is to always remember that no matter how hard things appear to be, there is always someone somewhere in the world who is doing it tougher and harder than you and it makes you really put things into perspective a little

good news you guys i went home to see my freinds and family wooohooo although my husband decided that we were going to leave early so he could go fishing the only thing is when i left i was more depressed when i left then i was before when i thought i couldnt go and visit them i cried the whole ride home and i just wanted to turn around and go back i want to move back to my mom's town so bad lol i miss em so much but i guess i have to deal lol but thanks for yall's advice though hopefully we'll be going back every other weekend

Maybe write letters? I know that when I moved from Seattle to the Tri-cities (other side of the state, four hours away) I left two of my best friends behind, Heather and Jacob. Now I'm in Alaska, and I've been pen-pals with Heather for YEARS now, and I plan on getting back in touch with Jacob mid-november (I feel very out-of-bookish about the whole thing.). The thing about letters is that it is a very good form of communication. It's nice to see familiar handwriting on a peice of paper, not your average fonts on a screen (No matter how attached I am to Times New Roman, Heather's handwriting is always fun to see). It might take a day or two for each letter, but there's this great sense of anticipation and then when you finally get the letter it just makes you so happy. Letters are more personal than the computer, and when you're reading a letter you don't really feel like you should be looking at them, because it's diferent than talking. You could also keep in touch with your mom better, since she doesn't have a computer. Then exchanging pictures is oh-so-much fun, because then you have something solid and current that will always be there when you feel bad. The only problem is keeping the stream of letters going, and the way to fix that is to, right when you get the letter, write back and stick it in the mailbox IMMEDIATELY, lol. It's not the same as seeing your family, but it's really personal and fun. Not like IMing, which takes all the fun out of it, I think...

Oh look, another essay, lol.