My prayers go out to you. I am so sorry, we are here for you babe... Just write and we will respond. Keep your chin up. And love that Audrey Grace.....

Thanks for all your support and kind words. All is DEFINITELY not well. Not only is my baby, my angel gone forever but her daddy-my ex-is having a lot of trouble coping. He's had trouble with depression in the past and it's gotten a lot worse since Marlie died. He's reluctant to take his medication and won't talk to me at all. When I called an old friend from before I was pregnant and told her about marlie she said:
"Well, I'm not suprised. You're so young, it's really common. You shouldn't be so shocked. Maybe if you were older." I'm so guilty. I feel like it's all my fault for being so young. Audrey came home today. I'm so paranoid, I moved her crib in to my room and I check on her constantly. I feel like a piece of me is missing and I just want to fold up and cry but I can't because I have Audrey and she needs me. To make things harder my dad is getting remarried and the woman really doesn't like Audrey and is always complainging about her crying, or when I feed her on the couch. It's so frustrating! I feel like the only thing keeping me going right now is Audrey, who really is the best thing to happen to me. She's so perfect. She has my hair color (brown) and her Grandmothers green eyes. I was kinda suprised when I saw her eyes because my eyes are blue and my boyfriends are hazel.

I actually have a cute story:
Audrey was named after my favorite actress audrey hepburn so we sat down to watch breakfast at tiffany's and she kept cooing at Audrey and the Cat.

I feel better now after righting all this down. Any advice???

I simply can't imagine how difficult your situation must be. Your daughter will always be with you, at your heart... and you have your wonderful daughter who'll loves you whatever is going to happen!!! I think you should sit and talk with your father and his fiancée - it is your and Audrey's house as well as her and yes, babies are crying! I also don't think that SIDS somehow relate with your age! That's not your fault! It can happen to everyone! That's why it's called Sudden Infant Death Syndrome! I know you're loving mother and you feel guilty because you've lost your baby, your inseparable part. But there's a difference between "feeling guilty" and actually being guilty. And you're not!!! I wish you and Audrey the best. Love, Kate.

Oh my goodness. I am extremly sorry, Dee. I am most definetly thinking of you and I am completely sympathetic towards you. You have been very nice to me, and now you need support more than ever. You and Audrey are in my prayers, for sure. I'm so sorry once again and we're here for you!