I have a little Lennon.

Didn't know it was a celebrity baby's name too. It does not matter. He is our little star!

Cyndi,

I hope all your dreams come true! And thank you of all your beautiful words. They really made me feel a lot better (right no I'm ill, I'd suppose to lay on my bed, but I couldn't help myself, I just wanted to answer your letter )
I believe, that everything is kind of connected...well to everything. And you can really see that, when you're laying in your bed, thinking "why am I sick?? And then you remember, that you did not put that yellow jacket on yesterday , when your mom told you to, and then you got sick,. So it pretty obvious (that when something happens, it leads up to the next thing) but I actually just figure it out. Funny
I believe, that every end is just a new beginning, and a start of something beautiful (and new!). It may be not so easy, but hey, it's a start. I can't wate to see what tomorrow brings to me, and my family. I can't wate to see my littlesiblings to grow, I can't wate to see my own little family. ( And I can't wate to continue this conversation wit U! ) But before my biggest dream (being a mom) I have to grow by myself. I know that I'm not ready to be a mom in a loooong time (even I'd love to) but that's ok. I don't have to. I've got time. And first I'd probably have to find the right guy.. It can't take a looong time, thoug

Enjoy your day!
Alina

Wow does all that sound so familiar!! My only wish is to ba a mom too. I knew very early that I was meant to do that one job. Like you I knew I had to wait until I was older to make it work right. I know it takes time to find the right guy too! I have kissed some frogs in my time. I found my prince finally. It was well worth the wait! I wanted to be an adult so much, now ther are times I want to have the simplicity I did when I was younger (not too often though) I am so glad you are not rushing things too fast. Taking time to smell the roses is not a pleasure people take enough advantage of.

I know it is cliche to tell you to listen to your mom. I hate to admit it though, they are usually right. Dont tell my mom I said that lol! She has taught me so many things that I used to think "She just doenst get it!" Now I know, she got it all too well and wanted to spare me major grief. Moms are magickial beings, they somehow know things even before they happen. They know your evil plots before you even get a chance to think them up. I know I want to be that way too, it will freak my kids out lol! That is one of the main reasons I wanted to wait till now too. I have much more experience under my belt than I would have if I would have started having kids in my teens. Then how would I have been able to tourture them with my psychic ablities?? I slways wondered how my mom was able to stay one step ahead of me. It was because she walked the same path before I did and knew where my mind was. Amazing!
I hope you are not too sick and feel better real soon!
Lots of love

Cyndi

Hei Cyndi!

Yes, I know I should listen to my parents And I actually do, except couple times a week maybe.. But I really try, though.
My mom has never really told me about my naming story. So I asked her. Came up that my first name Alina, comes from a wise woman who my mom knew before I was born. My mom and that Malina had a very close and warm friendship. She was like a grandmother to my mom, who never had one. So couple years after Malina died, my mom gave birth to me, and mixed Malina to Alina. My mom said to me that she has always saw a twinkle of Malina in me. I felt very good after it, becouse my mom really cared of her. She was one of the most important people on mommys life at the time and I was proud to be compared to her.

May I ask how old were you when you met your prince charmed? I've been thinkin a little. I'm turning 16 in august. And my bigsister (who's now 21) never really "sosialiced" with boys, but now she's
engaged with the first guy, who she ever really deated. (she was proposed when she was 19 and they want to start a family, which I think is just wonderful )But I'm maybe a bit envious. I know I shouldn't becouse she's my sis' and I love her to death, but I just can't stop seeing how happy she is. We've been best friends always, and I wish her just all the best. Really. Please don't get me wrong,I just..

I'm very popular girl at my school. All the guys seem to like me, what I don't really get. I don't find myself as so pretty as my friends, or skinny,tall or anything. My problem is that I change around boys. I don't know how to act.
The best way to act, would just beeing Alina, the normal teen who I am. I'd love to find my prince charmed, but I know that life isn't just sweet and easy game to play. I know I'm too young to get engaged and things like that.
But right now I feel that I'd be ready to have a boyfriend, not just a guy to hang out with (I have billions of boy freinds, friends who are boys )

I seriously don't know why I wrote this boything, I guess I just had to get thins feeling out of me. I'm kind of shy to talk of these things with my mom, (I tell her pretty much everything, bescouse she always understands me, but it's kind of hard to talk with her about these kind of stuff. Maybe it gets a little easier when I get older. Or then I just have to open my mouth and go talk to her.. Ohh...I'm so silly) and I don't believe that my friends would understand the whole problem (maybe just a piece of it, but I still love them) 'cos they are theyrselves with pretty much everybody. Ok, they change a little more wild with guys.. Ohh... sometimes it's not easy to be 15... But I'm pretty sure it's the same problem with every age

Lots of love
Alina

Alina,

I am so glad you got to hear the story about Malina, it is a wonderful one
Don't feel bad about being a bit jealous of your sis, we all feel that way one time or another. We all want to be happy! It isn't a bad thing. You are right about talking to your mom, I know it is hard to talk about boys sometimes, but my mom was always so understanding. I might be wrong since I don't know your mom, but try, you might be surprised.

I totally understand about the friends who are boys, been there done that! Truthfully just being your self is hard, but the only way to go. I didn't start "dating" until I was about 18. I grew up around most of the guys I went to school with and it is hard to fall in love with someone you saw eat paste and wet their pants when you all were 5 lol. I started when I moved to another town and went to college. Plus as soon as I stopped playing games the guys I were interested became interested in me. I was the buddy for so long it was hard for some of them to change their minds.

I didn't meet my prince until last year (right before I turned 33) but don't let that discourage you. I was way picky and I wouldn't settle for anything less than I wanted. You aren't looking for prince charming right now, you need some testers first to really learn who you want to be with, what kinds of qualities they have that are most important and if they have annoying qualities, which you can live with, which you cant tolerate. My advice is to write a list of qualities that you want. Honest, funny, tall etc. You never have to show this to anyone, so be brutally honest with yourself. That is exactly what I did and then I followed it. I let some of the little superficial things pass like I wanted him to have blue eyes, he has brown. But the important ones are there I started my list about your age and added and subtracted as I learned about myself. I also had to go outside my comfort zone (I don't suggest this for you right now though) and I signed up for an Internet dating site. That is how I found my Ed. but I really was able to get to know him before we really started to get serious (we live 3000 miles from each other!) but after a year he is the man of my dreams and I feel the way we met and the path we took was wonderful even though I miss him like crazy when we are apart. I will be moving in August (I cant wait!)

Also about your friends changing, that is normal and I wish I could say they learn. But some will always change themselves to fit the guy and will never be truly happy.


You can get anything off your chest with me it also helps you put things into perspective when it is in writing.

Hope this helps you a bit

All my love
Cyndi

I am only 13 and have been dreaming away for baby names and dreaming about having a family with, like, 20 kids! I love some of the names that you picked out, but I rarely look up to celebrities. I like the name Ocean though. Ocean Coral would be SWEET!!!